when duality hits you

I hate it when this hit me. You just can't make a single decision. Life is so funny. When you are in the spiritual journey, no one seems to look at you but i was already out from this when they TURN IN.

Sickening to see how life turns at you. When you were down to earth, appreciation nv existed! When things happened right before your eyes and decision takes in that OK i think ITS ENOUGH to be good you just change without realising it.

So here go the finger pointing that you should have done this, react this way, behave like this, but why didn't anyone realised that we are the cause of the changes. Yeah, after all who is going to admit their mistakes.

It just hurts!! Ifell sorry for those who've gone through this and i look up to them who have walked it down and survived the battle humbly.

Family members*relatives never stop finding mistakes, but they don't reflect themselves 1st before speaking up. This is why i am hot tempered, i just cant stand it. I lost faith in everything.

For those who are seeking changes, from within, all i can say the battle starts for the outer towards the inner. The outter will never let your succeed & the inner will let go. You will break down even badly than what you were before.

A piece of advise:

1. Never let anyone MAKE DECISION on behalf of you without your consent.
2. STAND UP for your right. People just never stop judging.
3. SPEAK UP for yourself when its neccessary. Don't be a coward.
4. Move a few steps behind from those who hurt you. SILENCE really do kill allot.
5. RESPECT the soul in you, refer for advise sincerely, you'll be guided.
6. Who ever speaks in within you can be the mind or the soul. The mind seeks satisfaction the soul seeks liberty. Soul will never give a bad advise but the mind WILL. (my personal experience)
7. KEEP certain feelings within you and should die with you. No one is yours.
8. Birthi kideh na hoveyi jan ki ardaas. It is very TRUE.
9.Find time to be by yourself alone with total silence. Its a healing process.
10. This last advise goes to me personally & to you- FAITH- have a strong faith no matter what happens. We don't believe because we can't see HIM with us. We only believe in what our eyes show us.