I am confused ????

I like iPhone @ blackberry @ samsumg @ htc... but i cant make up my mind... i want something where i can stay connected to blogging, FB and 24 hrs internet connection.. plus should be user friendly,not expensive... managable and keeps me always on the move!!!! help can i get some advise...

Marriage live

Hey.. it has bene a month plus since i got married and this is my first post since then.. Well u might be asking me how is marriage life? I'll say beautiful though its a bed of roses... simply just because you need ups & down to identify your self tolerance & how capable are you in handling situation..

I've resumed by education persuading for degree.. I'll catch up soon from this.

Eyes are dropping, and i'm tired.

Good Night All...
Have a great Day tomorrow.

I am there?

Yeap i told about my journey.. but i've not started it yet.. not to say exactly... i really look up to my mom and to someone who have been there for me always with/without me knowing..

I owe my entire life to them....got some feedbacks from other on some changes... yes i am begining to control and keep certain things to myself yet taking some time to reflect on my reaction before saying anything.. i am managing my temper, i have a better reason to have a life and m also looking forward for the new one...

Its 10.40pm right now... i am turning 26 in 1hr 20 minutes time... this time round i'm not shading any tears ..i want to receive joy and happiness with open arms and heart..Hope to have all the blessing that i could possible ask from anyone.. from HIM, parents and all... thats most important to me right now..

The Road Less Traveled

I believe you've heard this "The Road Less Traveled" in books, schools by tutors or anything that you came across with... I have made a decision to swim deeper into the spiritual journey..

Life is once... i've lived by life normally like others, so what is there to loose if i were to change & go deeper into something where many don't look into? I've always imagined myself sitting silently with my legs folded, eyes closed, deep in meditation, a pure reflection of peace & truth that is glowing from within in white punjabi suit.

Its a kind of satisfaction, a motivation that each time i close my eyes and imagine myself like how i've described, i feel energized (some sort of a sudden flush of adrenaline in my body)..

So i have decided that i want to learn more about the spiritual path yet knowing that its not an easy task. There will be lots of obstacle, from the inner (mind ) and the outer (worldly matters)

Recently I read a book written by Robin Sharma "The monk that sold his ferari"... its a good book, a wake up call and also a kind of realisation...And now i'm reading a book written by MARCI SHIMOFF feautured in THE SECRET with Carol KLINE " Love for No Reason".. still half way reading through yet...

 You see , we may have everything in the world, money enjoyment, leisure & pleasure, a happy relationship .. you just name it but in the ending you are still not happy. Its like something is missing somewhere in you that makes you feel incomplete...

The answer to complete oneself is SELF REALISATION. Most won't agree until they receive their wake up call .Everyone does just the matter of them noticing it.. I lost 5 years crying .. going under depression .See.. even normal living ppl like me can end up like this... So then i've decided to take amrit & become amritdhari...

Definition:

Amrit means immortalizing nectar.
Dhari is a suffix which shows ownership, and refers to the holder or possessor of Amrit.
The elixir prepared during the Sikh baptism ceremony, Amritsanchar, is called Amrit. An initiate who drinks Amrit is known afterward as an Amritdhari or one who posses Amrit.

After drinking Amrit, the amritdhari initiate belongs to the order of Khalsa a saint soldier sect of Sikhs. Amritdhari spiritual warriors do battle with the five voices of ego to overcome egoism and attain humility which is necessary to dispel duality and merge as one with the divine.

Some Amritdhari initiates say that when given Amrit to drink during the initiation ceremony, it felt as though they were swallowing a river.

Pronunciation: Aum rit dhaa ree

 

Source taken from sikhism.about.com

 

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY AMRITDHARI MUST WAKE UP DURING THE EMBROISAL HOUR TO PRAY & MEDITATE BEFORE SUN RISE.

 

Amritdhari must have the 5Ks with them as per above...

 

Our Guruji never said that we can't make up, cant wear jewerly and etc.. No.. he never say that..

Most importantly he said was to pray daily , bring humbleness & yet be FIRM.

 

Amritdhari is actually someones who devotee themselves to god and gets up in the embroisal hour to pray before sun rise... And i really want to do it..I've lost many years in pain..allowed pain to stay in my mind body & soul. I am not interested in anyone anything.. All i want to know is who am I ?

So here i am to set myself on a mission a journey of spiritual path & this will be the witness to my progress..

Hope to get blessing from all..

1st time making Kheer (Rice Pudding)

Well, its a basic need for a newly wed to know how to cook this special dish before she officially starts cooking in her new home..

So i tried cooking it today without ma around me of course, and it turn out ok (for me)but i am waiting for the final results from mom (mom knows best as usual).

I can't say it was easy as i was not sure of the measurement of water and sugar & the rest...i just followed in my insinct.

And sadly, today is also the day where i officially remover my nose stud..... It got infected and it was bad....owww.... the pain i felt hmmmm was nice very "NICE & PLEASING"  but still i am having 2 mind on this.. (to continue wearing or to let it heal & nv to wear again)..

Actually its a long story behind it.. 1st time when i got my nose stud ( i was about 20 then) it din last me long enough... i had a huge pimple growing at the side of it so i got it removed.. but i really love wearing it.. and just recently,my younger sister's mother inlaw (who just recently got married in dec'10 last year) convinced my sister to get her nose stud. so she did and here i came in the picture.. i got dragged to do it just 2 days before i got registered married... i was reluctant.and then... you know the story ready i guess....

This is what i am feeling.. after the 1st incident, i really wanted to get my nose stud again but mom said it wont suit me until my sis mom inlaw came in the pic.. and now when i really want it to be there i have to remove it because of some stupid pimple growing on it...my heart got broken twice...

What??? you think i'm just going to quit like that?? Nahhh...me the stuborn headed wont simple just quit.... i will get my nose stud again and go through all those pain for good and maybe one day i'll give up...one day not now..

oh ya by the way just fyi, nose stud is done using the indian traditional method that is using a kind of a needle to pock in and then waaaalaaa.......wonderful beautifull stupidfool like me who will want to go through the hassle again... *sigh*


gtg m gonna see neemo... my new fighting fish which is lazy & always sleepy like me

I GOT HIT !

Yeah....i just got registered 2 days back and i got HIT this morning on my way to work.

It happened around 8.10 am in the morning. Just met ma to give her spec, took a left turn, driving on a straight road and this very young sweet chinese gal suddenly came out of no where from the junction.

HECK ! the break din work... so you can imagine what happened next...

Well, then the panic button hit me, i called ma and she was engaged, not once but a few times. the nearest i could reach was my husband... crowd gathered, some noozy peeps slow down trying to figure out what happened + giving those "oh my god stare.."

Lonely.. yeap for the very moment i was on my own... i felt lost but not for long... ma & jaan came ...
i could just breath a while and then i broke down ...

I consider myself lucky to have loving parents who from far away arranged everything for me and a very loving husband & sister who left their work and stood by me the whole day ensuring i am ok.

Yeap... blessed .. to have these good people around me in my life.

I hope my car will be fixed soon... it saved me lots..As for now.. i just want to recover and stand again soundly on the ground to continue life again.time waits for no man.

I am officially married today

Today, 28 March 2011, I am officially married.. well, i do not know how do i express what i'm feeling right now...

I was a little panic in the morning. Was up by 4.00 am .. couldn't sleep the whole night,waiting for the time to pass by..

Everything was awsome.. i had fun.. i m happy..very happy...

Ice breaking process

Before registration

Bhai Onkar Singh Ji Una Wale - Prabh Ke Simran Kaal Parhare by Ragga Mus...

I love this Kirtan...
It is from Sukhmani Sahib.

Aarth(meaning)

By remembering God, death cannot approach (the devotee)
By remembering God, enemies (including the five evil instincts) retreat.

By remembering God, man(soul) does not again enter the womb (the cycle of birth and death ends).
By remembering God, the God of death (and the pain of death) disappear.

By remembering God, no obstacles come.
By remembering God, the devotee remains watchful (attached with God) night and day.

By remembering God, fear is not felt.
By remembering God, sorrow and pains do not give any trouble (are gladly tolerated by the devotees).

The (gift of) remembrance of God is obtained in the society of the true devotees.
(Guru) Nanak (says), all treasures of wealth are obtained by sincere devotion and love for God.

when duality hits you

I hate it when this hit me. You just can't make a single decision. Life is so funny. When you are in the spiritual journey, no one seems to look at you but i was already out from this when they TURN IN.

Sickening to see how life turns at you. When you were down to earth, appreciation nv existed! When things happened right before your eyes and decision takes in that OK i think ITS ENOUGH to be good you just change without realising it.

So here go the finger pointing that you should have done this, react this way, behave like this, but why didn't anyone realised that we are the cause of the changes. Yeah, after all who is going to admit their mistakes.

It just hurts!! Ifell sorry for those who've gone through this and i look up to them who have walked it down and survived the battle humbly.

Family members*relatives never stop finding mistakes, but they don't reflect themselves 1st before speaking up. This is why i am hot tempered, i just cant stand it. I lost faith in everything.

For those who are seeking changes, from within, all i can say the battle starts for the outer towards the inner. The outter will never let your succeed & the inner will let go. You will break down even badly than what you were before.

A piece of advise:

1. Never let anyone MAKE DECISION on behalf of you without your consent.
2. STAND UP for your right. People just never stop judging.
3. SPEAK UP for yourself when its neccessary. Don't be a coward.
4. Move a few steps behind from those who hurt you. SILENCE really do kill allot.
5. RESPECT the soul in you, refer for advise sincerely, you'll be guided.
6. Who ever speaks in within you can be the mind or the soul. The mind seeks satisfaction the soul seeks liberty. Soul will never give a bad advise but the mind WILL. (my personal experience)
7. KEEP certain feelings within you and should die with you. No one is yours.
8. Birthi kideh na hoveyi jan ki ardaas. It is very TRUE.
9.Find time to be by yourself alone with total silence. Its a healing process.
10. This last advise goes to me personally & to you- FAITH- have a strong faith no matter what happens. We don't believe because we can't see HIM with us. We only believe in what our eyes show us.